trepidation, n

When I was younger, I told everyone I aspired to be a reader of all good books that were ever written. When I am now, I worry I don't have a big enough bookshelf to contain them.

les feuille mortes

When time pulls us further,

and distance remains the sole connection.

By heart do remember,

that we're under the same sky.

C: "Omg, what happened to you?"

D: "Age."

C: "No, it's not an excuse. How do I look then?"

D: "Fucking hawt." 

/raised a brow

C: "Tell, how do I really look."

D: "Smashing."

C: "What's the agenda?"

D: "We've known each other for very long and we can be totally honest with each other right?" 

C: "Nine years. Yeah."

D: "I had a wet dream about you recently."

Chameleon.

The most prominent trait of mine - possibly - is how I switch from a state of mind to another just with a snap of a finger. I never like to dwell on unhappiness. At the end of the day, we have to ask ourselves what truly matters - the unhappiness or the moments of joy? Got the answer? Now etch it, remember it and focus.

I guess that explains why the tarot card guru said I'm an extremist and an amplified 8. There's never anything in between, there's never grey. It's only black or white. And I live loud.

Life is too short for bad emotions.

I want to travel, see the world, eat, explore new experiences, meet people, establish friendships, do something for the environment and appreciate arts and music. Basically, I just want to be myself. And myself, being a waif wannabe is hoping I have no shackles latched. It'd be a lie to say I don't wish I have a partner I can do these with. I need one who's as optimistic and love life as much as I do.

maybe one day, I'll stop waking up at 5am to cry.

The white rose.

I don't know where I go

But I know I drive alone