wild hogs.

Re read Geisha of Gion.
I wish I can be as strong as Mineko Iwasaki.



She will never let anything bring her down.



I still yearn for my tropical passion latte from CoffeeBean though.

I went to TM. I got picked up and was sent over.
It was a very sweet gesture. And I really appreciate it a lot.

Went to catch Wild Hogs. Oh. Friggin Funny. Lotsa Harley Davidsons. Staring John Travolta, Martin Lawrence, Tim Allen and William Macy. I really have a crush on John Travolta. I think he is hot. And I have a friend who looks a lot like him. Cheers Dylan.

At the carpark, on the way walking up to TM. I saw two things which I decided to snap a photo of.




I just don't reckon this is my style and I am definitely not going to have these. But I am still considering red or black.




There wasn't any drum there!

I spilled teh chinois all over me while having supper at East Coast Lagoon. A thorough goner. Clumsy as usual.

The night supposedly to be magical, turned out to be a nightmare when darkness slowly gives way to light. It was raining heavily... It was as if travelling in a time machine back to 10th March 2005. Every moment of it was worth savouring. So how did it turn out so horribly wrong?!

" Love without setbacks ain't true love."
Bullshit.



Everyone loves a lil scandal some time.





Loves,
Love.

ann sally's i wish you (both) love.

At 0600hours. My night lamp and my maroon satin curtains.

Miss(v.)
1. Feel the want of
2. Not have
3. Notice esp with regret the absence of - e.g I miss you

It was pouring when I opened my eyes. My room was pretty much in a state... Well you can call it heavenly. It was clearly less than 20 degrees. Real dark. Real dreamy. And my bed just happens to be Godlike. What it does is, it slowly drains away your fatigue and recharges your body with all the energy you'll need for the day. Which kinda now explains why my friends who'd once slept in, are always requesting to come over.






Yvonne didn't call me last night, nor is she calling now. The guy whom she is interested in, went to her school to pick her up last night. Needless to say, ...

I am not naturally insecured. Issues which had happened in the last two years of my life just got me hitting right into that pathetic state. Sorting out all thoughts, all along, I know what I wanna do with my life. When I said that a relationship isn't about setbacks and it shan't be served as a distraction, I had been guilty of letting it holding my life back. I gave up a golden opportunity of having a OJT overseas. That was because I was with someone whom I don't wish to part with despite how much deep down inside I had wanted to go. (One factor has gotten to be my guinea pigs)I don't blame no one, but myself. I don't mean what I say, most of the times. I claim to be strong, but I am sure, most of you around, know that I am just a weakling.

I am not exactly the best in a very special way.
But this is just me, and trust me, I am trying hard to be better.

(But I am a ninja at cryptic crosswords.)

still bic runga sway.

spoke to Nic.

I'm feeling better I guess.

In less than 3 months, I've been brought to my life's lowest point over and over again. And this anxiety disorder which leads to serious sleeping disorder and mild panic attacks are getting their toll on me. If I just carry on with this, I may just black out on some streets. No it ain't about fainting. It is about the embarrassment involved when you're lying on some tiled pavement (that is if I am lucky. Or it could be some slumps) with strangers surrounding you. Worse if some freak try to perform CPR on me.

I guess, I just shouldn't be reliant on anyone anymore. My life, ahead of me, though a mystery, I know I can beautify it and color it any way, which soever. I do not want to be wild, hot nor pretty anymore. I just want to be simple. And most importantly, smiling.



And I am singing again.
Perhaps it's time to fetch that guitar lying around somewhere.

he is godlike.

Nic says (6:43 AM):
you didn't, in the realistic and physical sense
you just had that emotional imaginary pillar.
you didn't care about what/who you were loving.
you just wanted to love someone
and now, it's still the same case isn't it?

Nic says (6:55 AM):
not just ben
you have to give up certain parts of your character
certain traits
certain things that you have lived with, all your life.
stop being needy.
you have to accept facts, and the world as it is.

chrissy* - get rich or die tryin'. says (6:56 AM):
u mean stop being reliant?

Nic says (6:56 AM):
let's imagine the world is simple
there are 2 types of people
1) those that rely on other people. 2) those that can be relied on.
choose now.
then work towards it


Nic says (7:00 AM):
no.1 sucks. cause you can't function without someone
and in this ugly world, you can't really depend on anyone
how many times have you been disappointed?
why not just quit it, and be no.2?
no.2's great cause you'll have more motivation in whatever you do

Nic says (7:01 AM):
cause you know people are counting on you
and you will always function
everyday of your life, you're living
sure, sometimes it sucks cause you're bearing big burdens. but at least you're feeling alive every single day







This is my fave man on earth on my bed. And it is not what it seems.

19 April 2007

I totally adore you. However, you betrayed this faith. Not only that, you betrayed me. You are a polygamy believer. You came up with packs and packs of lies in hope to bring me down. It's clear that you do not know how to play this game.

So with my best, my very best, I set you free.