Marked the last 24 hours of '08.

I think it sucks to be anticipating another year older. 

All the time, we see people making constancy plans for every single passing year without fail. But how often do they even keep up to these resolutions? For e.g, yours sincerely. I didn't manage to fulfill anything under my list. The outcomes of 'Quit smoking' and 'Lose weight' turned out badly because the opposites of both happened. 

Everyone has been putting on weight around me, except for Wenny, I am sure. Bang says it must be the weather. And hecks? I am down with a severe cold. My mucus and tears oozed out uncontrollably last night and I knew I was going to go down. When I hit my bed, if it's hard, I was so sure it'd have rang a loud thud. What a way to start off 2009 with a blast.

Aights. Instead of the act to resolute, how about a re-assuring one?

Things Chrissy thinks no one can live without (prolly myself):

Love

Lies

Lust

I cannot do without Love. Even when the syllabus irritates me a hell lot now. When I wondered why I adore Twilight when most peepos around me has been telling me how it sucks, I sorta come to this conclusion that I, even in the midst of total negativity, am waiting for the correct bell to ring. Then the gardens would start to bloom, butterflies would flutter their wings, birds would sing,  faith and hope will come by in such a natural fashion. And then it'll irk the shit out of you. Because I definitely will be such a hopeless romantic bitch. Every single sentence I may convey would have his name etched. Haha. 

I lie on an almost daily basis when I want to know the truth. So in order to get what I want, I lie to get my way. But of course, I have a strong uphold of moral teachings. I don't believe in causing intentional hurt upon others. My ego doesn't permit me to do that. Consciously, I am merely protecting myself all the time. That doesn't sound like a wrong thing to do.

And as for the last, what can I say? Everyone who knows me, knows me. If there's a decency pretense I put up everyday, call me wearing the mask of a virginal façade. But always refer to the previous paragraph. These two somewhat link each other up, one way or another.

I doubt I would be watching "Yes Man". Saying "yes" to everything does not necessarily make your life better or win you multi million paying lottery. For e.g, 

Boss: "Can I don't give you your 6 months' bonus?"

You: "Yes."

Boss: "Can I look at your tits?"

You: "Yes."

Boss: "Can I screw you and still don't give you your 6 months' bonus?" 

You: "Yes!"

And so, it's 12am sharp 31st of December 2008 now. Tell me, what would you like to do for the last 24 hours of 2008. =) 

Anselmo's Song.

I had a bad day, a bad control of emotions today. 

This mandarin phrase "丑人多做怪" certainly has its validity. There are stupid people everywhere. If you try to grab these people in a handful, I'm sure it'd come back as a thousandth fold. And I've learned when it comes to dealing with such people, I have to think two steps behind them in order to sashay on the same wavelength with them. So that they could register any ideas and meanings which I am trying to convey. What seriously dissed me off was that, my prerogative to argue was forcefully kept at bay. And I felt like a wimp. I hate the feeling of feeling like one. Seriously, stupid people can make big money yo? I'm surprised. 

Apart from that, if anyone should wish to go into a bitch fit, please make sure you have the looks, or the figure, and of course, a strong command of any language. We all know beautiful people are always pardoned for whatever epilepsy they relapse themselves into. I forgive pretty/hot people easier, as compared to the physically challenged ones. This world is unfair. Like what Butterfly said, people who are clearly unequal, do not deserve equal chances. If you are ugly and fucked up, you WILL be laughed at. /sniggers And you think likewise too, don't deny it. 

Really, she's just 敢你拿，拿不起来.

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I'm pretty sick of holding on so tightly to my moral teachings. It's after all not very innately me. The idea of a deed in a Ferrari sounds good though. Press play, someone? 

Rainbows & Bones.

Color me colors,

thus,

the streets, rainbows.

Don't you wanna feel my bones? ;)

Good morning to all! I am so impressed with the minimal amount of sleep I need in order to feel recharged! I feel hyped up now, I think I can run a marathon! 

X'mas this year is cool. Spent the night at home with nothing but games, music, and mocha. No alcohol - recuperating liver. Well, compared to last year's being mugged, every year's gonna be better! I was being so lame, I replied texts from everyone who sent me well wishes "Marry Chrisma." Haha. Merry Christmas - Marry Chrisma. Now that rhymes well. Obviously it was a flirt/tease/joke. Everyone knows the idea of a stable relationship irks me now.

I can't wait to go out of Singapore even though Taiwan ain't too much of a thrill for me. I just wanna get out! 

And guys, upcoming fashion trends for '09! Start your first day of 2009, go to the countdown party in this upcoming look! Jewel encrusted dresses/tops are a must-haves! And dresses with fringe. And the color for S/S is well, highlighter yellow. Haha. Please don't attempt to carry this color when your skin is slightly yellowish. Don't shirk the blame when you look like some traffic stop cone. Or the NYC taxi. Does anyone knows any shoes boutique which sells lovely pumps between price ranges from 60 - 120 moolah? 

I have been so indolent to do everything and anything. I am lazy to eat too. I think I am a sloth.

Heh. Picture me hanging onto a tree, all fours.

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I love the way the my long hair glissaded that night, the way the cool twilight breeze lingered through the little intervening gaps of my fingers. As I outstretched my arms out of the car, I felt I was a great shame. At the age of 23, my capabilities to feel right are ineffectual still. I couldn't tell a legitimate loathe and a wrongful love apart. 

That is, I know you've weaved me a basket of lies. And god damn it, why do I find it hard to let you go still? And that is, I love you. I love you. You are a basket.

So, they say, in order to forget you, I have to get someone better. And I say, most probably, I am cut out to remain single. I have an inordinate fascination with myself. Or most of the times I am fantasizing about having a superior being to love. I have an undying thirst within me to always seek for more and the better, the truly ethereal to my eyes. And I will know it right away after I've found him - like walking on the streets in opposing directions to each other, eyes locked. 

"Excuse me, I think you are the 100% guy whom I've been looking for."

"So, you are the 100% girl," and he smiled.

Murakami is real, I tell you. 

And it was 'you' I see, again.

Riddles.

Anyone? For me.

Yet another tiring day. My eyes are popping goldfishes'. And I think I am having a lil problem with my lower back. It's aching. /sighs Come to think of which, it's been aeons I hit the gym or dance. And darn, I sure need that massage. Kaba Modern's recent performances are making me cry. 

It's a relatively usual day. Then again, something unusual was going through my mind for most of the time in the morning - strangers (yet again). I have a liking towards things I don't know about. I guess it's common. But I know this abyss of curiosity bears malice components - well, soon you'd know what I mean.

Some things said last night which got me thinking, visualising, and smiling.

-"...watching the world collapses in Pachelbel's Canon in D minor."

What a grandeur of animosity!

The skies falling little by little, revealing the obscure world within. Tall building crumpling gently into nothing, debris musked the atmosphere and, there wasn't any chaos. The people finally found peace at heart, at last, they stood still, watched and listened. And once again, just like an epiphany, the world reverted to simplicity again. No more hastened pace, no more millionth face. =)

If you get what I mean...

Stay loved peepo. Imma go cuddle up four pillows now.

P.S Twilight is fairly good. Watch the movie, read the book, and the sequels.

Note to myself:

PLEASE SEND YOUR WATCH TO JAPAN YOU LAZY ASSHEAD!

Today's gathering with Class of 6E '97 turned out to be quite a success! Seeing how everyone has grown comforts me on this whole issue of growing up, or rather, old. =)

And guys, Waraku serves really bad jap food. -.-

Watched "The day the Earth stood still" with SM at vivo. I really fancy the plot! I adore this whole idea of, in order to save the Earth, mankind has to be eliminated. Vivo is a mess I tell ya. Two eejits got lost in Vivo despite having been there for countless times.

Talking and laughing too much can bore me sometimes.

Dinner at Big O with SM and Tracy.

"Baileys Me!" looks good. But it sure ain't.

What's SM emoing about? 

Sing praises to my mobile!

MOS! Come back MOS!

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girlfriday: without guilt and eyes on my back.   says (4:10 PM):

maybe, just maybe you could type something and show it to his current girlfriend

to let her knw what he's rly like

even if he's true to her, he IS an evil person

and its her bad luck to get someone like aloysius

i bet he kept mum about you and tons of other girls in his past

so she cant see his flaws and disgusting side

girlfriday: without guilt and eyes on my back.   says (4:13 PM):

she doesnt know everything, thats for sure. (:

and that means she's jst with someone who has secrets, and if she knws this, she'd waver and think twice about who her boyfriend is. if she ever knws about his past, that is.

-

So comforting to see these words. I appreciate your gesture to my calls for help when I didn't know how to feel. But I think I will back off. It ain't my problem anymore. Wenny, I toldcha, the only thing that I would be associated with him in the future is that I would be the first one to snap his prick off. 

I'll survive and live, and I am already doing it.

:D 

Happy Post #464458.

Wenny! I am still waiting for you to reply my smses before you go Korea! %#^@#$% You left me waiting in vain... :( 

And what! I am so going to Taiwan next march! Air ticket's booked, now there's the hotel. And the itinerary to be done! I wonder most of the times why Tracy and I are going there. We ain't really the cheena piangs to be exact, but heck luh? She said we should pose as ABCs. Lol. I think it sounds fun. 

Alrights! Photos! 

Come eat us. 

We are products of the cola company, 'zero calorie. great taste.'

Room revamped. The blue polka dots ribbon stands out.

I couldn't find white!

I love my new pink table lamp!

Aww.

A kiss for my next!

Try this. 

It rocks heaven and rainbows.

Having thought about this whole issue which is going on inside me, I have decided to delete the post "This is not a Hate Mail!" I really should think I shouldn't be entangled in this weave of emotions which should be long forgotten. And come to accept the way he was, and whichever way he is now. Reading the older posts, looking back, I realized how stupid I had been. I had been used! And those words which he had said to me all sound so easy now. They are convincingly better lies, and I see nothing now. When I had him, I thought I knew and saw everything. Then again, nothing regarding him is of my concern. I no longer wish to miss any of those careless words and the easy times he had when I bore all the difficulties. And if I do give way and bawl, the reason would be me, just for me myself.

I just went to facebook and saw this stupid application "Do you think your friend dresses up well?" and revealed the one person who clicked on "No" on me. Hmm? I think shirts and pants to a lousy club named butterfly or whatever, spaghetti straps with mini denim skirts + heels are really his cups of tea. But then again, whatever. 

I totally tried out fake eyelashes today! And my god, I swear I am addicted to em already! I want to even wear em to sleep man. And I had wanted to snap some photos of me in lashies but heck, I lost my right contacts and I went to shower as soon as I got home.

Wenny is being funny loh. Asked me on MSN to text her as soon as I see her message, and she ain't replying now. Boo hoo. 

Friends do leave. I do leave too (not suggesting anything to you Wenny). I cannot count the number of people I have dropped along this journey, but hey, plastic is a non-biodegradable waste and it's harmful to the landscape. I don't know, I sound like a hater.

The last time I went madly in love was in year 2005. And that was the only time it ever happened. I went nuts for someone else not me. And I declared to the whole world that I loved him. It was very mutual. We were more than effulgence. And I am really thankful it happened, even though he and I are pretty much talking strangers now.

I miss falling in love with lotsa P.D.As.

To sign off this post, I decided to cite what I came up with last night while typing out that "not a hate mail".

And it's for him, Aloysius Teoh, from me.

Lying is the most fun you can have without taking off anyone's clothes. But it's better if everyone does.